Wednesday, March 21, 2012

Coyote’s Ancient Tail

From the beginning of time,

mankind has heard my laughter.

From the old time,

to this very night.

The bristles on my tail

have been many.

May be that at times they grow thick and bushy

and I am puffed up with pride

and all kinds of foolishness.

Could be I grow lazy and fat,

sleeping too much in the sun.

And may be, Crow comes by,

sneaks up on me when I'm dreaming,

and steals away with my Medicine sack and I lose ....

everything,

Everybody laughs then,

calling me Coyote Foolishness.

I grow thin and wiry

in the lean times.

I run fast and low,

unseen when the Dark Time comes.

Then I see, I hear, I learn much of the World’s secrets.

And I remember many strange things.

At such times as these,

everybody sings my Ancient Tale.

They smile,

they call me Coyote Wisdom.

You hear my tale,

and still I am laughing.

Come, tell Coyote your own ancient tale,

so we may sit under the stars, and laugh together.

Monday, November 15, 2010

JINN THEORY - synopsis

Rafiq enjoys a life of near perfect contentment. Long used to a comfortable existence in his small antique shop, he sells Persian rugs and an odd assortment of books to a curious mélange of customers on a small dead end street in Istanbul. Like many Muslims, Rafiq is troubled by the complexities of the political worlds that engulf his own and has sought refuge in the world of private Islamic practice and the company of books and a few good friends. Among these friends are a lonely old baker, an Iranian couple who run a local restaurant, and an American Sufi convert to Islam grappling with the conflicting social and religious demands of the order of dervishes he has become involved with. Rafiq then meets Michaela—an American Muslim academic—and her half Moroccan husband Samir. The couple are trying to raise a child and weather the disintegrating marriage of the Samir's parents and its devastating effects on their own family. Add to this mix what appears to be a fundamentalist extremist, who runs the neighborhood mosque and comes to him for help in the middle of the night, and Rafiq's life soon falls far short of perfect contentment.



Odd happenings begin to have a weird effect on Rafiq's world, and a mysterious presence begins to make itself known. A fabulous coin out of antiquity appears in Rafiq's shoe, things are moved about in the store where they don't belong, and there's the delightful tinkling of glass bells that fills the air whenever these curiosities occur. And the good natured owner of the restaurant boasting Persian home cooking wonders if Rafiq's store might be inhabited by jinn. But this is something Rafiq—a passionate student of both mysticism and rationalism just can't consider and he laughs off the possibility of the Jinn Theory in favor of searching for a more reasonable explanation. But then the old man appears in Rafiq's shop when the door was locked and there had been nobody there just moments before—an old man dressed in tribal Afghan robes and resembling, a little too perfectly down to the smallest detail, a beloved photo Rafiq remembered from National Geographic decades earlier.



Things ramp up when Ramsay Hamza, the proprietor of the old bakery across the street confides in Rafiq that his son Mahmoud, who has been living in the US for many years, wants to come for a visit with the grandchild he has never seen—if Ramsay Hamza will loan him the money for the trip. But this ruse quickly unravels and the baker's son is revealed to have been living a tangled web of stories in order to hide from his father the fact that he had sought a new life in the US because of his homosexuality. But the lies don't stop with this part of Mahmoud's lifestyle which includes drugs, crime, and violence.



Suhayl, a longhaired blond twenty-seven-year-old convert to Sufi Islam from California, is trying very hard to live the traditional religious ideals set forth by his shaykh. But Suhayl is suffering from severe migraine attacks that are worsening and all the shaykh wants him to do is pray. But there are the other troubling issues with this shaykh: He has brought a very young woman into the dervish lodge whom he says is his wife, but the girl clearly has no interest in Sufism or anything else besides playing lady of the house and ordering the shaykh's students around. Suhayl is torn between obedience, perhaps even blind obedience to his shaykh, and concern for his own health and what his conscience tells him is right, and wrong.



Suhayl joins Rafiq at Hamid's Persian restaurant for dinner and the two older men, both in their late fifties, are angered and worried by the tales of abuse that Suhayl and others have been reportedly suffering at the hands of their shaykh. They are most worried about the shaykh's refusal to allow Suhayl to see a doctor for his migraines and they reveal to him that Hamid himself has been with a shaykh for many years and never should there be the kind of recklessness and rejection of modern medicine and common sense that Suhayl has described. Rafiq must calm Hamid as his rage at the breach of trust that these false shaykhs hold over their helpless and sincere followers threatens to overwhelm their conversation.



While trying to sort out his concerns for his friends, Rafiq becomes entangled with Michaela—an American woman married to a Moroccan—and her crises with her husband's parents. Then Selim, the man Rafiq assumes is a fundamentalist and who runs the small neighborhood mosque, is banging on Rafiq's door in the middle of the night and begging for help when the young man Azami, his ward and a child he had rescued from a terrorist bombing in Syria when the boy was six years old, is missing and possibly arrested with would-be-terrorists of this generation.



Rafiq and Michaela discuss the crossroads that she, as an academic in Islamic studies, is facing. She laments angrily that she is called "an imperialist stooge" by Muslims to the right of her moderate and liberal Westernized views, and "a terrorist sympathizer" by fellow Americans because she is not afraid to address the role that colonialism, new and old, has played in world affairs. As a non hijab-wearing woman, and an American, she is often called not a real Muslim or a mere convert, but as a Muslim who deeply loves her faith, she is also accused of supporting antiquated cultural norms. Unwitting stooge, terrorist sympathizer; Michaela is none of these things.



And against all odds, it seems that the Iranian restaurateur was right: Rafiq's storeis inhabited by jinn, with one ancient nonhuman soul who is bound to the earth to guide and assist the most pained human souls in their transition to spiritual and worldly renewal.





Selim, the man who runs the mosque and who seeks Rafiq's help when there is no one else to turn to, is anything but a terrorist although he was bred and raised among the carnage of war and lived his early years as a militia fighter—Until the day he went into the destroyed ruins of a bombed building and brought out a small child. Clinging helplessly to Selim's body, Azami was only six years old and had just witnessed the brutal slaughter of his parents in an explosion that destroyed their apartment building. Selim is devastated by his encounter with the child and leaves the militia in search of his soul and a way to create a safe home for the child he has decided to raise, a child much like he had been when he first entered the fray of street violence in his war torn city. Selim recalls those early years with Azami and his own sudden and inexplicable desire to go on the Hajj where he had at first been disappointed that the experience was not what he had imagined. On the trip home he encounters a stranger, Tursun Nourazar, whom he had seen from a distance several times in the Holy City and begins a friendship that will change his and Azami's lives.



When Azami finally appears near dawn, after having spent the evening with Suhayl visiting his dervish lodge and then talking late into the night, Selim is enraged with worry that Azami is heading down the very same road he had taken as a youth which lead him into politics and violence. He backhands Azami, something he has never done before, and they are both horrified. Azami spends the rest of the night huddled in his bed with the door locked clutching a kitchen knife to his chest, not sure if it's for Selim, should he try to enter his room in anger, or for himself. He can't possibly suspect that Selim believes his own redemption is wrapped up in Azami making it, surviving youth and becoming a happy productive adult. For Azami, now eighteen, all he can think of is making his own decisions, deciding who he will spend time with and finding answers for the very same questions that drove Selim as a young man, and fighting the incapacitating anxiety attacks which strike him almost nightly.



Not long after the bizarre night in which Rafiq helps Selim try to track down Azami, and gets to hear Selim's whole life story breathlessly over the backseat of Ramsay Hamza's car, Rafiq is shocked to see his old friend Khosro appear on his doorstep— just arrived from Tehran. No accident of course, that same night the owner and patron of the mosque, Selim and Azami's teacher Tursun Nourazar, also appears at the mosque unannounced. In the following days he forces Azami and Selim to confront each other and share their worries and the changes going on in their lives as men for the first time. To accomplish this Tursun must shove them into the abyss of horrible memories that can no longer be ignored. Selim's early years of political and militant activism, something Azami has suspected and longed to hear about but which Selim has refused to share with him, come to light and the three men discuss the ideas of people like al-Afghani and Qutub and how those ideas have incited men to violence when desperation has driven them beyond hope in more rational means of political redress.



Khosro and Tursun have known each other since they were small boys in the seminary in Qom, Iran. Tursun had always been the ringleader and the boys were in constant trouble, causing their teachers and parents so much grief and embarrassment before the powerful clerics of Shi'ism who threaten to remove the boys permanently from school. Even after countless threats and warnings of the dangers at the haunted wells in the foothills outside the city, the two boys skip school again and ride out to explore the irresistible mysteries they believe must hide there. But tragedy strikes when Tursun's beloved horse Widad stumbles and breaks her leg and the boys end up falling into one of the abandoned wells when they go to get water to cool her heaving body. It is there in the wells that they meet the jinni, an austere but kindly being who breaks their arrogance and gives them another chance; a chance to save their standing at school and regain the trust and respect of their parents, a chance to grow into states of being they can not even imagine yet. This is an opportunity they embrace, each in his own way, and spend their lives engaged with. But this was just the beginning of a new life for Tursun and Khosro. It is this jinnii and these two boys, now old men in the middle sixties, who have come together at this nexus of crises that is tearing apart so many lives.



Michaela's mother-in-law Eileen arrives and proceeds to try to lure her twelve year old grandson Phillip back to the United States to live with her. The divorce from her husband Jamal has driven Eileen down a spiral of alcohol and pain medication abuse. She has also set out on a one woman crusade of hatred against everything Islamic: including her own son and his family. Samir, Michaela's husband, must learn how to distance himself from a controlling mother who has used her extended separation to manipulate him as she tries to drive a wedge between him and Michaela and turn their son against them. And Jamal, Samir's father must wake up and realize that his pampered upbringing and perhaps too easily won success has destroyed his family. And the affair he had, although brief and now ended, was the final breach of trust that ended his marriage and lost his son's respect.



Jamal is disgusted with himself for allowing his family to slip away amidst his selfish hedonistic dalliances. He is saddened as he remembers the adventurous young couple that he and Eileen had been at the beginning of their marriage on their travels throughout the Middle East, and is broken hearted to see the mess he has allowed their lives to become. Although Jamal has tried numerous times to see Eileen with the hope of convincing her to give their marriage another chance, she has always rejected any overtures with anger and silence, refusing even to speak to him, and he has all but given up. Jamal then runs into a respected colleague at a book convention who convinces him to give his marriage one more try. This colleague is the same Tursun Nourazar who had helped Jamal's son and his family get their apartment in the high rise right across from the mosque that Tursun owns among other global properties.



Ramsay Hamza receives news from his nephew Kareem who has tried to visit his cousin Mahmoud in the US. All of Mahmoud's stories about a career and a family were lies. Soon Mahmoud, Marty as he has been calling himself in the US, has disappeared and his father learns much later that he was murdered by a drug dealer.



Suhayl—having had a blowup with his shaykh and left his dervish order because of the wisdom he has heard from Hamid and Rafiq—is paralyzed by the fearful guilt that he just couldn't handle the rigors of spiritual life, and is torn by the growing certainty that Hamid and Rafiq were right in their harsh assessments of his shaykh. Suhayl stands on the edge of the a wharf entertaining the fantasy of allowing himself to slip into the waters to his death just when Azami, out running along the waterfront, discovers him and convinces him to come back to the mosque to talk with Tursun as dark storm clouds gather into the setting sun.



Throughout all of this Rafiq has been the anchor, the one person everyone has turned to for advice and just to release the mounting stress and frustrations. But the machinations of the jinni in the lives of all these people has not left Rafiq himself untouched as he comes to see that his perfectly ordered life was little more than a carefully manicured facade of refinement and spiritual contentment.



Nearing death, Eileen sees the jinni in a dream. Always a familiar figure, he came to her in her greatest moments of fear as a child, comforting her and guiding her through comforting dreams of safety and love. This time is no different, and while she tries to cling to him like a terrified child, he forces her to look at her family, those who love her and want desperately for her to get well. And this includes Jamal who she is afraid to trust, but who is there to make one last attempt to heal the breach between them.



As the sun sets and the storm thickens in the sky, the jinni appears in the garden of the mosque and seats himself beneath a tree to wait for his two old friends, savoring the delight of the scents of the flowers and the feel of earth upon his flesh. When they sense his presence they come to him and he tells them it is time to gather their friends in the mosque.



The storm descends upon the city causing widespread destruction and havoc while the inner storms of these and related peoples crest. Eileen, now drunk and passed out in a suicide attempt is rushed to the hospital by a tearful Jamal who has also just arrived in town with Tursun in renewed hope of repairing his family and admitting his mistakes to the woman he still considers his wife. But will Eileen survive the night when the storm knocks out the power in the hospital?



With the storm breaking wildly outside the mosque, Rafiq and Suhayl, Azami and Selim and Khosro and Tursun are inside, sensing that the heart of the storm is near. And soon the jinni arrives. He sits with each man, revealing the strife and trials they have been facing and giving them something they had all but lost: hope, and the understanding that the worst of life's trials may become doorways that each person must unlock alone and enter. Each is given a choice, the same choice that Tursun and Khosro were given in their boyhood at the bottom of the well: to go back into life wiser and more prepared to embrace their lives, or to enter a world of inner wisdom and service to the divine and humanity. And each will answer according to his nature.



But for Tursun and Khosro, old men at the end of their lives, that choice is something very different. Khosro feels he must continue his life as he always has, until that life is finished. Tursun however, forever the instigator, the risk taker, even as the ringleader back in Qom, chooses the unknown as he always has, and he touches the jinni's body.



The next morning the storms have passed, and the lives of all will begin anew, transformed in unexpected ways but all facing hard roads ahead of them, including those not present but in the wider circle touched by the jinni—Michaela and her family and Ramsay Hamza. Except for Tursun, who has completely disappeared along with the jinni and walked out of the visible world.



Some months later, Selim and Rafiq are walking down the street near the mosque late on a cold fall evening when they hear laughter and then see a young girl swinging in the park. A mischievous kid, she's a little too cheeky and won't tell them where her parents are and what she's doing out there in the dark. She then challenges them to see who can fly as high as she can on the swings. Selim is angered, but Rafiq gets a strange but pleasantly familiar sensation, and then there's that tinkling of glass bells he's always heard whenever the jinni was near. He tells Selim they'd better get on those swings and start flying.



And the jinni? He prepared these many lives to behold the threshold of mystery and opened the doors of profound personal transformation for them. His work is done, and he has finally earned that for which he had never dared to hope but which he has longed for throughout all the time of creation: The call of the One who created him.

Thursday, August 13, 2009

FORTRESS

Praise not thy fortress
High and of impenetrable redoubt,
Oh sweet, my fair elusive love.
For it shall surely crumble at thy feet
Before I surrender to thee thus bloody day.
Praise not thy warriors comely,
Thy archers keen of eye,
Thy chevaliers and knights of spotless virtue,
For they shall die upon my sword,
As shall any of thy hapless knaves
Who seeks to protect thee from my gaze.
Laugh not in scorn or pity as I ravage at thy fortress gates,
Though I stand this siege alone.
Oh, laugh not, my fair elusive love.
For amidst the falling petals of thy joy,
I shall surely take thee.

Sunday, April 5, 2009

WHEN COYOTE CALLED DOWN THE STARS

Coyote’s sitting beside a fire pit late one night.
It’s real dark, and his back’s to you.

Finally, after he’s made you wait a good long while, he signals
for you to sit yourself down, and you do it.
You’re sitting right there in front of that old varmint,
but he ain’t seeing you.

WHAT?--- Coyote yells, finally looking up at you.
You thought Coyote was a Man?
Or some kind of wild dog?
Or maybe a spirit from the Before Times?
Well I’ll tell you something.
I ain’t none of those things!

You look in Coyote’s eyes.
You’re looking for signs,
signs that tell you Hey!
It’s okay.
Coyote’s only funning with ya.

But all you see is those two yellow eyes,
and the firelight flickering
reflecting your own face
dancing in those old yellow eyes of his.

Then Coyote starts messing with the fire,
sending sparks and smoke curling
all the way up to the stars.
Coyote, he’s mumbling something to himself,
and there’s the beating of nightwings overhead.
Coyote, he starts whistling,
and pulling that old blanket of his
tighter around his bony old shoulders.

Hey, Coyote! What are you calling down?

But Coyote, he doesn’t answer.
He just starts messing with that fire again,
Rocking back and forth
and mumbling something to himself.
Faster now.

Hey Coyote! What are you calling down?

Coyote, he looks up at the stars overhead
And starts grinning.
There’s those nightwings again.

Hey Coyote! What are you calling down?

And Coyote, he looks you dead in the eyes
And shakes his head like you were some sorry excuse.

Best you just sit still
and keep quiet now, if you can ---
he hisses in your general direction as he jumps up and sets to his medicine dance.

Coyote, he always means business.

ROOF WALKERS

Hey Zebra Man, what you doing up there?
---Comin’ to see you!---
Why you walking on the rooftops?
---Comin’ to see you!---
Hey Zebra Man, how come you don’t walk through the front door?
---Because when I come through the front door, I’m a man.
But when you see me coming over
the rooftops, I’m
From somewhere else.---
Hey Zebra Man, where you comin’ from?
---From the other side, from the Old Times, I
Come from the Spirit Place.---
What are you doing up there Zebra Man? What can you see?
---I’m looking for signs and signals. I’m seeing things
Up here I just can’t see from the ground.---
Hey Zebra Man, how come you’ve got those funny striped horns?
---Maybe I make you laugh, and maybe you
Don’t see what I’m working on till I’m good and ready.---
Hey Zebra Man, how come you come my way walking over the roofs?
---So’s I make sure you see me.
So’s I make sure you don’t miss a single one of my tricks.---
Hey Zebra Man, how come you come my way walking over the roofs?
---So’s I make sure the People see me, and the Other Ones don’t.---
Hey Zebra Man, who are the Other Ones?
--- Shhhhh! You know Who.---

COYOTE'S JOURNEY

You ever notice how Coyote, he never doubles back? I first discovered this peculiarity of his when he picked me up along the roadside heading south one morning not long before daybreak. I was minding my own damn business, not looking for any grief or mischief and I sure wasn’t looking for a ride. But along comes this slick new sports car, one of those fast European jobs, and the driver rolls down his window and grins at me. Hop in, he says, I’ll take you for a little spin. Then he winks, and I get that cold shiver up my backside like I do whenever things are starting to heat up.
So I hop in and off we go, tear-assing down the highway like the law was after us and we had more than a guilty secret or two between us. Pretty soon, I realize I left my backpack laying by the side of the road.
Turn around! I yell. But coyote, he doesn’t even slow down, he just sits there grinning.
Stop this damned car and turn around! I left my backpack out there on the highway!
I know it
--- he says. I figured there wasn’t anything in there you needed anymore and that was why you left it laying back there.
Well no
! – I say. I just forgot it back there, that's all! And I need my damn gear, so turn this buggy around and get on back there for it!
Nope
--- says Coyote. Nope, nay, and nada. If there was anything important in that sack of yours, you’d never have forgot it. If there was any unfinished business in that old bag, then you’d best learn to get by with unfinished business, because we ain’t never turning back now. And if there’s anything in there you just can’t live without, then you’d best get started dying, because this car is going straight on till we get where we’re headed, and we ain’t stopping, and we ain’t turning around for nothing. You ride with Coyote, you ride a one way street.
Oh well, I suppose he’s right. There wasn’t anything special in that old sack after all. Best just sit back and enjoy the view.

THE TALE OF THE THREE BROTHERS

A great and noble chieftain had died victorious in battle, and as is the custom of the sons of the barbarians, he gave his lands in equal portions to his three sons. Before the funereal pyre of the great chief had fully cooled, these three fine eager youths set off to put their affairs in place and to establish themselves upon their domains, each of them as a king unto his people and his lands.
Soon however, strange and troubling news came to the eldest son that a huge lion had been seen prowling in the forest, a creature magnificent, wild, ferocious, and untamed. The peasants grew mad with terror. So the young king considered the stars carefully, and he studied the ancient texts for a sign, and he sought the council of his great men to determine what he must do to bring peace once again to his lands.
After three days it was decided that nothing could be done to guard against the threat of such a creature and that their only hope would be to shun the beast completely and lock it out of the land and thereby only might they remain safe from its claws and its wild howling in the night.
So a great and massive wall, impenetrable and fortified with stone, was built up around the beautiful forest. No food or water could be brought forth to feed the people of the city, but at least the lion was confined deep and hidden within. Neither peasant nor noble nor king was allowed to enter or approach the wall or the forest, or to even speak of it and soon it was all overgrown with weeds and darkness and invisible to the eyes of the young king and his people.
But then, the maddened roaring of the caged beast began to reach the ears of the king and the children began to suffer the terrors of the night and awaken crying in their dreams. And then at last, great holes begin to appear in the wall surrounding the forest which contained this fierce lion, now mad with rage and starving. It was even rumored that a child had been killed and its body lay torn and bleeding near the wall where the great cracks had appeared, yet none dared approach from fear. And some swore they had even seen the beast prowling the streets freely by night, but that it had changed its form and was monstrous and terrible to behold. But none would see it, for they remained locked behind their own walls and doors, so great was their fear to venture forth, and a terror gripped the land like the dark cloud of locusts which descends and feeds until naught but dust remains.
Now, the middle son lived some leagues away, but he too was brought this curious news of a lion hunting his forest and roaming the streets of his city by night.
“My brother is a fool,” said the young prince. So he organized a great hunt, and he and his nobles set forth out of the city with spears and swords and with all manner of display of their might and their great power and accompanied by the beating of many drums. And soon of course, they came to the lion’s cave where he slept in peace during the hot summer’s day.
They rushed upon the great beast and they slew him with ease as he slept and dreamed of the night and the hunt. They cut his body into many pieces, and they brought it back to the city where they made a great show of their victory and peace once again prevailed within the land.
But soon, another and similar beast of its kind was seen to roam in the land and hunt in the forest by night, and sheep were found killed and people disappeared often from their beds while they slept. Various old women went mad and spoke of a terrible and unquenchable vengeance that would come upon them for the slaying of the lion. And the sons of the lion were rumored to be too many to count and that they came in secret and in dreams and possessed no form that could be seen with the eye.
And a terror gripped the land like the cloud of locusts that descends from nowhere and feeds until naught but dust remains.
The youngest son heard these sad tales and grieved with pity for his brother’s terrible misfortunes. The lad was known to be wise for his youth and a lad of many and well considered thoughts and virtues. He studied with the greatest philosophers of the day and he sat with monks and with priests and he was possessed of eyes and a heart which act as one.
So the youth called for his council and together they rode into their own forest where they knew a great lion, magnificent, ferocious and untamed, prevailed. And with much patience and with the cunning of good men, they won the trust of the lion. And they subdued him with food and with a kind hand.
With time, the lion grew docile and quite tame and fed from their hands like a pet. And soon the lion grew fat and lazy and no longer dreamed of the hunt. He lay about like a great dog, eager for a pat on the head or a bit of cooked meat and he ceased to be a lion at all.
And the king and his nobles grew soft and their lion roared no more and boredom and sloth descended upon the land like the kiss of the opium poppy and all the people felt contempt for the lion because it was tamed. But the lion felt an equal measure of rage and contempt for the nobles, his masters, because they had robbed him of his soul. And all was quite tame and still in the land.
But it was rumored that the lion dreamed at last once more and that his dreams touched the deepest souls of the nobles and their king but they were dreams of death and of decay and of horror. But they heeded it not for they could not remember their dreams. And a terror of something unknown gripped the land like a cloud of locusts that swells up from the caves of the darkest earth and blackens out the sky and feeds until naught but bones remain.
And at this point in the story, the good storyteller pauses in his tale to quaff the last dregs remaining at the bottom of his wine cup as his audience begins to rise, ready to take their leave.
“But wait,” he calls. “do you not know that these three brothers had a sister?”
Oh yes, and she as well took an equal portion of the lands of her father, the dead and victorious king. And she too heard the curious news of a great lion, ferocious, magnificent and untamed, hunting wild in the forests of her home. Delight and curiosity swept the heart of the young queen with joy, and she called to her all of her maidens and girls in waiting, all of her dancers and nobles and together they made a grand procession of singing and dancing and merriment and ventured forth out deep into the forest to better see this wonder for themselves.
The queen and her friends watched in fascination as the lion crouched and lunged and stalked its prey, as was its nature. And they laughed with delight as the beast washed itself after feasting and then rolled and played in the tall grasses and slept on its back without a care or a worry or a fear.
And when the lion awoke, the young queen leapt upon his back and clasped his magnificent body to her own and dug her fingers deep into the thick fur of his mane and whispered her name into his ear with a kiss. And the lion sprang into the woods and carried her away on his mad and glorious chase of the hunt. Together they rode, wildness and wanton.
And late into the cool star-filled night the lion returned her safe and happy to her home. And it was agreed between them and a pact was formed, that by day, the lion would hunt as his nature demands, magnificent, ferocious and free. And together by night, they ride to the hunt as one.